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The premise -- in as much
as there is an underlying assumption to these
offerings -- is simply that we tend to take 'it all'
far too seriously. I emphasize the importance of play
in these writings, and so long as we are able to think
there is always something to play with. My own play,
as well as the play I act in and observe in life, is
personal: I strive to keep my play (and the possible
ramifications of my playing) to myself . . . and seek
to avoid (as much as possible) intervening in the
lives of others. Nevertheless, all that we say and do
influences those around us: this is why I have been so
reluctant to declare the significance of what I have
been trying to put into words for all these years. So
long as those for whom I care are free to make their
own sense of 'things' (and, if they think it
necessary, their own decisions), whatever influence
one may have upon others is tempered. I am willing to
shoulder the weight of responsibility for my own words
and actions, however I have no will to carry the
burden of responsibility for intervening in the lives
of others (and especially those who are closest to
me). But there is also another 'pillar' upon which all
this rests: this has to do with an apparent need to
seek some 'higher' authority.
All may not agree with
this apparent need. I would say that the 'argument'
between Voltaire and Leibniz (as characterized by
Dr. Pangloss in the satire of Candide) speaks
volumes here: I would come 'down' on the 'side' of
Leibniz and Pangloss . . . that is, we inevitably
come to recognize the need for an appeal to some
kind of ultimate authority. The declaration of
Pangloss captures this 'pillar' most succinctly:
"Everything happens for the ultimate good in this,
the best of all possible worlds." For myself, this
declaration is not borne of a sense of temerity or
of frailty; rather by a sense of humility. As I
undertake to make these personal declarations
public, I do so with a sense that whatever happens
(or fails to happen) will be appropriate. Perhaps my
felt need to share all this is but natural, but
perhaps something more. Whatever 'the case,' the
Great Mystery remains; the mystery has not been
solved or dissolved. My choice was never to share
this or not . . . it was simply whether or not I
could or should ignore it. Eventually, I could no
longer ignore confronting this that gnawed at me
from within . . . and, inevitably, I defer to higher
authority.